The world is full of brokenness. I see it every day in my
clinic. Advanced cervical cancer again and again. It’s getting young women with
children and families, older women widowed and raising grandhchildren. The
cancer doesn’t care who they are. It just grows and consumes them. I’ve gotta
look them in the eyes and give them “the talk”. Infertility again and again.
Didn’t know that those times of pleasure then would cause them so much pain
now. But sexual diseases have scarred the tubes shut and I can’t fix them. I
can’t give them a baby. I’ve gotta look her in the eyes too, and give her “the
talk”. Mothers, or women who want to be mothers, pregnant so many times, but
lost them all. Stillborn twice, three died within a week of birth, the only one
that lived died at age of five. I’ve gotta look her in the eyes, and here comes
“the talk”. It varies a bit to fit the need of the moment, but the beginning of
the talk is always starting from the same point – hopelessness. And the end of
it is leading to something that often seems out of grasp – hope. Maybe
circumstances haven’t led you to that point of having been drained of
expectation of any good, or of any joy. But they likely will. So let me tell you
the introduction for what you are going to need to know on that day. Maybe you
can remember and reflect. I don’t know why bad things happen like this. I mean,
theologically, I do know. But sometimes you just can’t make sense of it. This
is a hard day. You are hearing hard things. And it seems like there is no hope
left. But I want to tell you that on the very best days and on the very worst
days, there is hope. There is a God who can be trusted no matter what the
circumstance is. He is able to be trusted with the circumstances of this world,
and with all that is to come when this life is over. He sent His Son down to
show us who He is, and to bring hope to the desperate. He Himself lived a life
of sorrow, and He can comfort you in your sorrow. You need to understand who
Christ is, He is the only hope…
Really, that is the most important conversation that I have.
And sometimes it feels so helpless, like you wish you could do something more,
but you can’t. Ultimately we all need a bigger, better hope than this limited
world has to offer. Life is going to let us down. It’s going to ask us for more
than we want to give, take more than we ever would have allowed, and sometimes
pour on more than we can bear. But there’s something better to come. Where
brokenness is made whole, healing is complete, joy comes without sorrow, and
life does not end in death. In fact, life there does not end at all. There we
will see for the first time since generations and generations ago, what
creation looks like without the mar of sin. The worries of this life will be
but distant memories, wisps too small to be remembered in light of the One who
will satisfy and sustain us in full. Let every broken moment make us long and
yearn for that day.
Christy, you are an amazing woman, an amazing writer, and an amazing servant of God. I am so proud to know you a little, but wish I had gotten to know you more. We miss you so much at Grace. I sat by Lindy this morning and we talked about how sweet it was when you were there singing with us. I hope God blesses you more than you can imagine!
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